a come back

well… 2:04 a.m here. Sunday, yeah… later’s gonna be Pacman and Cotto’s fight. I’m kinda excited about it for the hope that he’s gonna win at an even round. Yeah… I bet. lol.

Anyway, here I go again… can’t sleep in the middle of the night. Errrr…. I dunno, I’ve spent, like, this whole dumb day watchin movies. that was great though but i dunno, hmmm it just came to my mind… yeah about these hesitations. Well if you’re with me you’ve gotta figure out already. If not, then let it be… I guess you should stop reading this selfish post XD

Hmm… first it was because of a guy, then came my AP -attitude problem- LOL. I was not really into guy, but mind you guys… I was about to dig that opportunity huh. Well, maybe my decision is not in favor of whoever son of yerr lord, and it’s really for my own. However, there’s like 3%.. no make that 4, okay 5% regret on my part. o.0 All of a sudden, it’s gone. I should have listened to eminem… “Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity To seize everything you ever wanted-One moment Would you capture it or just let it slip?—-You own it, you better never let it go… You only get one shot, do not miss your chance to blow… This opportunity comes once in a lifetime yo”

what else? hmmm… i dunno, my career? my personal life? or it’s the significant other. It’s difficult, but i think those thoughts from the past are all coming back. Yeah… they all are. and i hate it coz i thought i’ve had them buried 6 feet under (lol crap). Argghhhhh they’re hunting me. I know I have to do this with him, for us. But I don’t know if I could. I wanna keep going by myself. I hate to say this… but I mean it.